It's spring again, although you wouldn't know it to look outside, and I'm looking ahead to the new life that this season represents, as well as behind to whence I've come. About a year ago, I wrote this post. I was feeling frustrated as I waited for God to move in my life, to open a door or even a window so that I could feel at home. I can't help but feel blessed as I look around me now.
I used to be so frustrated about having nowhere to serve. I was so involved in my old church, but in the new one it seemed like I had no idea where to look for opportunities. Now, I find myself having to decide where to step back. I've been involved with youth and a couple of other areas, and have recently been asked to serve in a para-church Bible study group that I attend. It truly is an embarrassment of riches.
When I was offered my current job, I was worried that being "just" a receptionist would be so frustrating. What would people think of me? Today, I can say that I am very happy working part-time and having the rest of my days to focus on home, my Mandarin studies, etc. Other opportunities may arise, and I'll consider them prayerfully, but God has been teaching me to stop seeing myself through the lens of being a career woman.
Even a few months ago, I was still feeling sad about not having many real Christian friends here. I tried and tried to remind myself that it takes time, but that doesn't keep the loneliness at bay. Recently, I've been meeting new friends in and out of the church. I had an awesome time with a new friend this week, and the yesterday when I saw her at church, she turned to another woman that I think is wonderful, and said, "How about the three of us get together some time?" I swear, the heavens opened up and I heard a big Hallelujah. (Well, okay, not really). This is what I've been craving: Not just individual friendships but a group of ladies that I can have fun with and discuss life, faith, and everything else. As an added bonus, two friends from Ottawa were here last weekend and I had a great time just enjoying the company of close girlfriends.
I'm not saying any of this to boast about how my life is so amazing. I mean, I'm really blessed, but I still have those moments when I get locked out or spend half the day on the phone trying to figure out our health insurance benefits. But when I look back at where I was last March, I see how much God has blessed me in the past 12 months and I am awed at His goodness.